During this holiday season, I have started to reflect on my life and I have come to the conclusion that it is time for change. While I have a had a lot of change in 2014, I am ready for more change. Bigger change. With my life in general. What I am craving this new year is simplicity.
I have been living a very un simple life for a long, long time. In general I am a somewhat simple preson in several regards. I do not wear much make up, I wear the same jewelry everyday. I am laid back. I am simple at my core. But my core has been covered by thick blankets. Blankets of desire, wanting more, wanting change and ultimately just complaining about my life. Basically I have been complaining for a while that my life is not simple. See, I thought that since I live in Dallas that my life would and could never be simple. I have spent countless hours wrestling the thoughts in my mind about how I wish I could live somewhere simpler. A farm outside of town. The east coast where people just care about different things. I have gushed to close friends over this desire. I have pouted about where I live and let me be honest with you, I have it pretty darn good. There is NOTHING I should be complaining about. But what have I done constantly, complain.
What I recently realized and came to terms with is that it is not where I am, it is who I am that needs to change a bit. There is nothing actually holding me back from living a simple life, despite where I live. I have thought that I need to be somewhere simple, to be simple. I have been making my current status complicated and unattractive to myself. I have put my thoughts and money into things that deep down do not matter to me. The way I have decorated my house. The way I spend my time. The way I spend money. None of it has been simply. And that is where I am right now. Finally realizing that all of my surrounds are undesirable to me because of me. And that is going to change.
SIMPLE is a word that I am hypothetically tattooing on every inch of my body. I have a long way to go but my first step in this journey will be getting rid of a lot of stuff. That is the thing I have learned about acquiring things. It just piles up and begins to weigh on you and then what do we do, give it away, and start the process of acquiring all over again. This time I am mapping out what I really need and what our family needs and getting rid of the rest. Downsizing in a major way.
Also, I am in the process of taking this blog back to its natural, original state. A simple, no frills blog about my life and family. A TREASURE HUNT has strayed in ways from what I originally intended for it to be. Do not worry though, I am getting everything back on track. Stay tuned.